Trade-offs

I can't say that anything has gotten any worse, so I shouldn't complain. I'm not self-centered enough to think that I'm the only one with problems, that mine are the only ones that mattered or that they couldn't get worse. I'm glad that nothing bad has happened to me or anyone I care about...

But nothing good has happened either. I'm stuck in this inactive rut and it's annoying. On the one hand, I'm stuck waiting for something good to happen (even if I have to make it happen myself) while silently paranoid that something terrible will happen first.

That said, I'm not sure if I'm more thankful for what I haven't lost or more desperate for what I want and don't have. I don't want to start talking about life being unfair or any crap like that, I know everybody's got it pretty rough. I just thought that something would've broken by now and it hasn't.

I guess I needed to bitch a little bit. It's been a rough few weeks and soon I'm going to going home for spring break, so I can see it won't get much better. I'll try to focus less on what I'm not getting and more on what I'm thankful I've got.